11.30am
Just reached home from DSTA Interview... and i think i din do well. An interview tat lasted only 10min (i think lesser than 10mins, i dunno...)
if i din get thru, i tink i know why. 2 fatal questions...
1st fatal qn:
if i'm given a chance to study at overseas uni, will i go? (note: i only applied for NUS and NTU)
my answer... a definite no cos of some reason. but if i'm given a chance to go for overseas student exchange programme (last only 1year) i will definitely go.
Fatal ah fatal... cos all their scholars go top overseas uni... wad to do. i was surrounded by top students from top JCs during these interviews.
Inferior? I guess so.
2nd fatal qn:
Is mathematics my strongest subject?
I was stunted. Stunted not because it isnt my strongest subject but because there wasnt confidence to say yes. The reality is... poly maths can never compare to JC maths. Especially in these kind of interview where 99% are top JC students. And especially when I dropped Higher Engineering Maths.
I really dunno wad LuKai's brain is made of... scoring an A in Hmaths, a GPA of 3.98and involved in sports and E2 Matrix. -.-"
I tink it's time for them to revise Hmaths schedule. Madness 2 hours of lecture and 2 hours of tutorial cramped all together (tat was my schedule) and a chapter per lecture when we still have to meet project report datelines, our normal studies (and SME work).
aiya... i dunno i writing all these to blame myself or wad. To blame myself i dun even know blaming myself for wad reasons.
3years back, if i had jus continued on at MJC... i will definitely fail GP. Now i have graduated from TP, no regrets still... but jus plain inferior when i went for this DSTA interviews.
Pinned all my hopes and dreams on DSTA interviews... jus hoped the results come back soon. At least if i failed, let me know early and quickly den at least my heart can move on with life.
Hoping for the best, hoping i can get the scholarship. DSTA and SAF Local Study Award were the only ones tat i hoped i can cliched.
sadness.
din tell my mum cos i dunno wad to say. dad tonight confirm will ask abt it cos he called home during my last interview to ask how did i fare. first time in my life he is actually concerned.
Something new to me. Cos they din even wanted to attend my graduation ceremony next month. Din even wanted to see me receive the award cos they find these ceremonies to boring. Had to force them to attend, booked them a month ago. Irony rite?
Untypical Singaporean parents.
becoming less worried over such things.
all i hope is to receive good news from DSTA soon. The fast the better. I wan to get it over and done with.